This week I finally admitted it out loud: I’m sick of training to run a marathon.
I woke up Thursday morning, alarm set early to head out for a mid-week run, and just did not want to go. It wasn’t the consequence of a late night the previous evening, or too many days of running in the week, just the cumulative effect of weeks and months of running to try and get my middle-aged body in decent enough shape to run 42km.
This day, I was over it all. I just wanted the race weekend to be here, and to be over, so that I can go back to bed. So that I can choose to run if I feel like it, instead of running to a schedule.
But, my schedule said run, and the last thing I’m going to do is let the months of training slide because of slackness in the last few weeks…so I dragged myself out the door and onto the pavement.
And I felt rotten the whole morning. I felt every twinge, every ache, every step. And I ran slow, and not very far. There’s no question that state-of-mind has an impact on performance!
The next day I ran into a PE teacher/sports-trainer friend and was telling him my sob story. He said “You know Scott, those training miles, the ones that you do even when you most want to be at home in bed, they’re the most valuable training miles you will ever run”.
I didn’t believe him at the time, but with a week to ponder, I think maybe he’s right. The moments when we somehow manage to talk ourselves into what we know is the right thing, even when we’d rather be elsewhere…those moments are important. Maybe it’s the minutes I choose to spend reading night-time stories to the six-year old instead of snoozing on the couch. Maybe it’s the yard work, or time invested with the family, or volunteering at my community group….whatever the category, it’s the times we go when we’re just not motivated that really matter.
Anyway, a couple of days later I was scheduled for my longest run yet – 32km. I think you can guess how much I wasn’t looking forward to that experience! My previous longest at a little over 28km hadn’t ended well, with a little walking mixed in the last couple of km to nurse home some injured legs. That memory, together with the general funk about the whole project meant I was dreading that alarm bell.
What a surprise then, and a blessed relief, to find myself thoroughly enjoying the whole run. Pace was good (still probably a little too fast for training…but such is life), the few aches and pains that popped up along the way disappeared as I plodded along, and to top it all off, the river was shrouded in fog to lend an ethereal quality to the early miles, before the sun came out to cheer me home. It was perhaps the best “long” run I’ve had, and definitely the best in weeks.
Don’t get me wrong. I was spent by the time I got home, and nursing a couple of pretty painful knees – but way better than my previous long run, and way better than I expected as I headed out the door that morning.
And with my 32.7k including quite a few hills (where the Gold Coast race is almost totally flat), the whole experience gave me a much needed shot of confidence that 42km is going to be achievable.
Not easy. And not pain-free. But achievable.
I guess that’s the value of the hours and hours of training. Even when it doesn’t feel like it to me, it’s been building and conditioning the muscles to do what they could not have done before. To churn out km after km on one Sunday in July, hopefully going the distance and enjoying the journey.
On this second-last long training run, I think my brain finally caught up with my body. Everything feels like it’s nearly ready. The training is working. There are a couple of weeks of solid running left, one more long run (35km) and then it’s into the blessed relief of the taper and pre-race rest.
I got to wondering (as I do) about parallels. About other areas in life in which long hours of preparation, weeks and months and years of training quietly sneak up on you, preparing you for some new experience.
Maybe it’s education and formal training. Maybe it’s on-the-job learning. Maybe it’s hours of training sessions at a sport or hobby. Maybe it’s years of practice as a first-time parent helping to prepare you for each new stage of a child’s life.
I don’t know what the answer is for you, or even necessarily for me.
I only know that training matters. It prepares us, equips us, enables us.
Even when it’s not fun.
Training Since Last Blog
24/5 – 20km @ 5.35 p/km
27/5 – 10.4km @ 5.36 p/km
29/5 – 10.2km @ 5.33 p/km
1/6 – 32.7km @ 5.41 p/km
4/6 – Ride 40km